obstinate

I need to let go,
this I know.
But letting go
feels like failure.

Though obstinate, I
won't scream or cry.
My stubbornness
is my jailer.

As you're slinking away,
in my head I replay
memories of all of
the good times.

I dignify you
as though it were true
ignoring all of your 
heart's crimes.

Your distance and coldness
then rashness and boldness,
"selective" reticence
the name of your game.

You sure kept me guessin'
now I'm learning my lesson,
it's different but always
the same.

I fall for the guy
who's a mystery, I
see a puzzle
I'm dying to solve.

Then I hold on too tight.
Now I solved it, all right,
it's me that
needs to evolve.