milquetoast

too long
i've let
the world
happen to me
a milquetoast
propping up the walls
and taking the fall
for all
i've paid
for the sins
without the
joy of the sinning
only won when it's
pyrrhic winning
no more
no more
boldly take the wheel
and if i crash
and end trapped
in mangled steel
entombed
at least i'll have cast off
this damp and heavy mantle
of a morality heeded by none
but me