weird

forever in my view
shall it be
singular, spectacular
and incomprehensible
in my heart still
a weird and wild mishmash
of gritty grandeur
in my mind
a wild rumpus
brought to a crashing halt
through no fault
of mine but still
but still
the detritus of a carnival
left strewn about me
and now in lenten days
I have the time to ponder
but find myself no closer
to truth ineffable